Friends, fun, puppies, and wants.

Time to let those enzymes do their job and digest this blob of a post:

It’s been a lot of fun hanging out with good friends,
though I feel frazzled and frayed while fizzling ferociously,
trying to keep my thoughts in order so I can get the job done.
Overload seems to help short circuit to creative one-ups,
though I feel under-whelmed, under-done, and under-achieved,
trying to keep my head on straight so I can make things solid.
Maybe I focus too much on the negative of day-time living,
though I feel unaccomplished, unsatisfied and unwilling,
trying to keep the future on par so I can live up to expectations.

Yes, it’s the usual work-life-hobby meets dream-job balance war that goes on in my head on an almost weekly basis. It’s completely normal and I have come to accept that my brain is a battlefield of emotion and thought process that either ties my hands behind my back and keeps me from cutting out the “boring” parts of my life, or lets me loose on the battlefield with my tools of sonic destruction and audiological healing: wasting negative thoughts while healing the wounded positives as an iconic, legendary hero traveling in no man’s land.

I’m having a blast, really.  I’ve been greatly enjoying the company of friends. I’ve been taking advantage of rest and relaxation and having fun.  I’m getting a puppy (pictures soon) at the end of the month. I’m picking up the music production again to work towards my larger life goals.  I’m back to salivating over technological habits (cameras, music equipment, and cars, anyone?), enjoying video games like crazy (yes.. WarCraft, Xbox, and my new-found love interest: Guitar Hero/Rock Band.. I was living under a rock for a few years and played for the first time over the weekend).

I have a lot of stuff to be greatful for and stay positive about, so there’s no reason in the world that my day job career should be getting me down.  If I can mold my personal life into how I want it to be, then I should be doing the same with my career and taking myself along a journey in that respect, too.

Hell yea!

..holy crap.. a puppy?  We think his name will be Zephyr. He’s a black lab. =)